Bo go ship da ❤

MUSIC..
pending my heart...
BO GO SHIP DA❤

at last...I choose to leave myself alone...

bathing in my music❤

I ❤ RAIN

I ❤ RAIN
This is the first time i love walking in the rain....
hahahaha....
the weather is so cold...but i feel warm...
thx for coming...
hahahahaha

Finally ..i'm not the youngest one!TT

Finally..I'm not the youngest one in my school...
Although it's wat i have been wishing for a long time..it struggles me now ..
I'm become an OLD WOMAN now????????????????
Oh man..you must be kidding me ...haiz...

older than you..oh no!

I miss you!!

I miss you..

no matter who you are ..

I miss you..

no matter whr are you ..

I miss you..

no matter if you couldn't feel me ..

I miss you..

no matter how long should i wait for..

waiting for THE ONE!!..

so curious when i gonna meet u ♥ hehe

muackz...   

电影：流浪汉世界杯

这是一部由真实故事改编的电影..在一个很巧合的情况下..我看完了这部电影：流浪汉世界杯..差一点就错过了它..感谢主..安排了这样的一个机缘巧合..让我给我的心灵上了很重要的一课..
这是一部基督教电影..但这不是重点..重点是里面带出来的意思..是无论什么宗教都举双手认同的..到处寻找流浪汉..以足球来充实他们心灵上的缺口..不论他们是以什么样的原由流浪在街头..祂都不放弃他们..张建东是一个社工..上帝派他来伸出他的手给这些流浪汉们..就像上帝派遣耶稣到我们身边来一样..就像上帝派遣挪亚造了艘船..当我们遇到挫折绝境的时候..我们常在想..是不是祂放弃了我们?是不是祂不喜欢我们?...可是我们忘了很重要的一点..绝境挫折是衬托成功胜利的托盘..就好象雨后出现的彩虹一样..没有绝境挫折的痛苦..我们又怎么会知道成功胜利的喜乐? 没有下雨时的阴暗..我们又怎么会知道彩虹的色彩?..当中提到..我们应该秉着五个非常重要的步伐来走我们的人生..

当我们失败时..我们要告诉自己..
我一直都是失败的
我从以前到现在都是失败的
我一直失败是因为我没有去克服失败
我相信..上帝一直眷顾我..如果我现在就去学习怎么克服失败..我一定会成功的
我现在就去学习克服失败..

当我们成功时..我们要告诉自己..
我一直都是成功的
我从以前到现在都是成功的
我一直没能更加突破是因为我没有学会谦卑去面对我的成功
我相信..上帝一直怜悯我..如果我现在就开始学习谦卑..我一定能有更大的突破
我现在就开始学习怎么谦卑..

我相信如果我们每个人都能做到这一点..我们的人生一定充满着彩虹的色彩..没有人不会跌到..当我们还是婴儿的时候..我们都是经历过跌到..才学会走路..才学会奔跑..
也没有人不会成功..当我们每跨一步向前..我们就是在人生的道路中跨了一步..这就是成功的象征..
一定要面对自己的一切..只因为祂创造了这个独一无二的你..就算你犯了错..勇于面对自己的错误..我们才能继续走下去..如果钻牛角尖..就只能在原地踏步..祂爱我们..毋庸置疑..因为祂创造了我们..就好象..爸爸爱我..只因为他让我来到这个世上..
做人一定要认清自己..秉着信念..去追求这个世上祂预备给你的一切美好事物..不用害怕..因为我们不是一个人..世上千千万万的人都和我们一样在跌到..爬起..奔跑..跌到..爬起..奔跑..我们都在过着我们每一个人的人生..我们都在走我们自己选择的道路..

谁说失败就是失败..失败的意思是..失去了那个失败的自己..获得一个新的开始的机会..

换个角度看事情..你会得到不一样的答案..我们可以站在无数个不同的角度..何必死守这一个角度跟自己过不去?

永远都不要放弃..因为祂没放弃你!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how to make a better life

I gotta go my own way..

I have my own life to live why should i follow others?

I have read a book names "Pamper yourself"...I found many interesting stories and examples from tis book..

The book is divided into four parts...

I was very impressed in one of the chapters which is discussing "Release your pressure and get your freedom"

Actually all of us know that when you stressed yourself you need to pay more energy and time to achieve your purpose. The thing is when the problem comes ..it's hard to clear our mind! The first thing that we always do is become nervous then defend ..it's the common reaction!

It mention a point about forgiveness too..

Forgiveness is a topic that considered by this society..we are entangled in either forgive or investigate people when something bad happened...Sometimes we are so angry with people who makes us pain..we even want to make them pain as well by doing sth childish (avenged)..but all of us have overlooked a point that this kind of action is hurting ourselves...

Forgiveness is the most graceful thing in the world..if everyone knows how to forgive others ..it must be very peaceful society..Ya ! it's hard especially something very serious..but we do need to learn..when you forgive someone that means you can release yourself from it! If we don't forgive we can't focus on the thing that is more important and more appropriate ..

Just make it ended in this point and let something else begin !

after erased the old sentence then we can write a new one ..

Don't let the thing or the person to control you.

In that paragraph ..there's a sentence very impressed me ..

不愿去原谅别人就像自己喝毒药却希望别人死去！

this is a very strong analogy!

hahaha..

Pamper yourselves starts from forgiveness! haha..I do believe it! 

you can feel so peace and comfortable and happy by reminding urself to forgive ..

Let's find the balance!haha

if we can study philosophy..if we learn it from our daily life and dont afraid to understand it..

then we can make ourselves a better person then we can be pampered!

=]

muackz^^

the light in the darkness

Finally ..i got my CAS!
Can I list it as a new hope from the deep circumstance ?
ya..there is always hope..
I think all of us know this ..but how many of us can stay calm when sth bad happened?
Tis is what we need to learn..
it's hard..ya..
but thank GOD..you r my only hope when sth close my eyes...
you let me feel peace although I burst into tears...
I know i'm know strong enough..
but the thing is ..
i know i can definitely see rainbow after the rain!
AMEN!

The Darkness

Have you ever tried ...
suddenly burst into tears...
without any reason...
or too many reasons...

it's so scary man...
you can do nothing but stuck at tat moment...
let the tears slide down your cheek...
non-stop sliding...

what's going on...
na...juz feel like tearing...
really...
maybe it's time to clean up my face my cheek...

yaya...
it is...

Dropping into deep oceon

I'm really really upset...
No one can understand how important it means to me!
I'm tired in living the life for you..
To be frank..i think i am filial piety enough..i do everything for you..
why can't you see it or even feel a little bit ..
For you...all of these are for my own good!
For me... all of these are for your own good!
I have already thrown away what kind of life tat i wanna live...
I can't even cry in front of you???
Tearing is illegal in your principles in your law ?
What the hell"!!!!
i can feel that my world is grey in colour..
how can i continue my smile????
it's so cruel man ...it's so grievance!!!!!!!
TT

520

520 r combining by such three beautiful numbers !
it's alright for me that i can only stay at home alone during the day!
when you r alone.. during meaningful days..you start thinking of someone!
someone that has hidden inside your deep heart for a long time!
it's sad ? nope..it's warm...that thr's someone you can miss n think of!
although you 're alone..actually you r not alone!

Miracle

I can't believe it!!
My dream has come true..!!oh no..
it's unbelievable..
hahaha
God..thank you for hearing me..
I'm so appreciated..
I'll do it well ..
It's absolutely fantastic!!
hehehe

My hope!

I have been waiting for this chance since i was young!
Pls...Let me try once!
I really dun wanna miss this opportunity to make myself regret!
I know if i miss it i will not have any chance anymore!
I really wish my dream will come true..
I have the only hope!
God..show me the way..pls!

拥有, 失去

如果不曾拥有..就不会失去

如果不曾开心..就不会悲伤

如果不曾盼望..就不会失望

如果不曾爱过..就不会心痛

累了

你凭什么赖在我心里..死都不离开?
我叫你滚!!!!!!

Idiot!!

U r the most idiot people i have ever met in my entire life!
haha..
I can't imagine how can u make me laugh like hell!
U r such a genius man!
hahaha..
Anyway..thank you for making me laugh..i have never laughed like tat before!
Sometimes.. i really wanna knock ur head idiot!!!!
Soooooo geram to fight with u!!!!
hahaha..
Oh my goodness...
I think I have been compelling by ur jokes!!!
can't stop laughing!!
hahaha..

I miss the time in London!!!!!

I am sooooooooo tired after the trip ..
honestly i'm not really feeling well but i dun wan people to worry,,

5 days passes so fast tat i cant stop missing the time we have been tgt..

I miss the time we cook tgt

I miss the time we laugh tgt

I miss the time we argue tgt
I miss the time we play tgt

And lots of long long stories..

It's my first time travel alone to somewhr..quite an amazing experience..

have learnt a lot ..
To be frank ..one of my happiest moments in Uk..
hehehe^^

I miss them dy!!!!!!!!!!! 

3rd Day in London

Another rainy day in London..
We went to Buckingham..British Museum and Olympic Stadium...
It is hard to believe that Londoner is very kind and helpful..
I thought and heard from others that they r more selfish, I totally change my mind though...
hehe
Anyway..The Four Seasons is such a fantastic restaurant in China Town..
It was the first time I finished up to 3 pieces duck! LOL
One of my most happy things is the NIKE bag...It looks really nice..and only 26 pounds!
Skip to the night activity..we went for badminton to relive from greediness of it..
After tat, we went home to cook our dinner..they were cola chicken and fried rice.
We took about an hour on our cooking ..
It was an unforgettable dinner..
hua zhen was with us..three of us are from payfong..juz looked exactly like our payfong gathering!
I love it so much!
Anyway..Thank God tat I have this kind of experience, chance!
2 more days to stay...I know it will be awesome^^

First Day in London!

It's a rainy day..
The first time travelling by train alone..
The view is fantastic although so many clouds n looked grey!
It's a good experience ..I close my mind n think nothing...so comfortable n relax!
I'm tired..really tired..
I cant find a place for me to hide from tis circumstance...
I have been telling myself to overcome..
However, i have been reminding for a long time though!
I really need someone to talk to.. to share with..
I have let go...really..juz cant pretend like nothing had happened..
Freddy n Yi Liang brought me to a malaysian restaurant ..
The Malay Chao Kua Teow is awesome!
I miss home!!!
Then we went for a window shopping!..I wanna buy !..Daddy whr are u!???????????????
hehe
At least I have a short period never think about the problem tat i.m facing!
They helped me to carry my luggage for a whole day!
Feel so guilty..
Anyway...I believe tat tomorrow will be another memorable day too!
Amen!

Great time in sharing ourselves

I went  to Edinburgh ytd,,It was quite fun although it was an extremely tired journey for me!
Renting a car n Vincent be the driver!
It was not an good idea actually..haiz!
I think the most interesting thing is not the city but the journey!
Because of the fully tank of fuel fossil..we drove to tynemouth this morning ( couldn't find the sea front==)
then we went to see a landlord..OMG! It's really hard to describe tat property.
Contrary, thank God. Vincent's friend has replied tat we can move in to his previous house!
I think it's alright for us to stay thr.. It's quite near to Northumbia Uni and not too far to Newcastle Uni too!
After tat, we went to costcow! Thr r lots of cheap things to buy honestly!
We had a fantastic connect group tonight! I miss it so much since I came bac from m'sia.
The happiest and warmest thing is wynne and lawrence sharing themselves wit me..
I love to have this kind of conversation wit friends!
Unfortunately, Vincent can't treat me like that..For me I think, he never shared himself with me as a friend!
It is so sad..

Malaysian Night

I went to Malaysia Ball with Yilin last night.

Actually, I know juz a bit friends thr..

It was a bit weird for me to be in tat ball.

I reviewed a lot of memories ..like our graduation night..

You can't image my feeling right thr..

Missing is such a smart killer ya..

Go bac to my temper, I think I was too tired dealing with the stuff and people these few days.

I was a bit rude while talking to my mum. Sorry for tat. You know me well ya?

And I think I should start my revision again. It has been stucking thr for a long time..LOL
After 1 month , I will go bac to m'sia. I have been waiting for so long.

It must be great ! I should spend my time here well in this month.

God pls watch me and teach me.

I need you.

Pay Fong gathering

3days are too short for u honestly..
Feeling a bit upset when the time to say goodbye just now..
I din know we could be that close together because actually this was the first time we be with together..
It was amazing! I have never been tat happy since i came to newcastle..
Freddy is so funny..haha..
Wenxian is so friendly..haha
Yi Liang is so crazy..haha
Engthurs is so smart!!haha
ThankGodx100000000000000++
I wish I could go Amsterdam and Paris with them ..I have missed the chance thou..
Engthurs was right tat it's hard to have a chance for us (original team) gather tgt..
So sad to hear tat...
It's such a good experience that we cooked , played at home.
Everyone is juz like a family here. The story is really hot!!!
Anyway..Glad to know them^^                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Dinner at home^^ & my bad temper TT

I think I'l spend my whole holiday to EAT EAT EAT...
After the fantastic Greek Food, we got Italian Food..LOL
Serena, Lawrence and Ikhun came to our house last night..we ordered pizza, made garlic bread and chicken, drank coca...What on earth were we doing..???Sooooooooooooooo enjoy our life though..
hahaha
We watched parental..oh..it's such an amazing film.
Then was our broad game ( actually it was card game)..exactly like a battle..
hahahaa
By the way, we enjoyed it soooo much. Appreciated serena planning it! I hope to gather like tis every week..( so greedy! hehehe
Actually, mum was doing her operation ytd though..Thank God tat she is fine...I was really angry tat she never even tell me a word about it..My cute daddy who has no potential to be a liar told me everything after 1 or 2 questions.haiz..I really hope they dun keep anything as a secret in front of me><
I'm now waiting my mum calling me...i'm really lack of filial piety tat always angry with her...
God..I really want to change my behaviour, temper...I'll try..

Greek Food

Today we went to Ken and Isobel's house to cook Greek food for them.
This was our first time to make Greek Food so we have no idea whether it's the right taste.
We started with nerve and stress.
From 1.30pm to 7.00pm, finally we finished cooking.
It was quite successful though. haha
It was really a good experience. I have found that Greek Food is really very healthy food ( I hate parsley though TT). 

STARTER-SPINACH PIE & TABOULI SALAD

 MAIN DISHES-LITTLE SHOE, MASH-POTATOES, BAKED-BALCONY & MUSHROOM

 DESSERT-YIAOURTI ME MELI

hahaha.It was really fun to gather with you guys tgt (Wynne, Serena, Lawrence, Vincent, Ken and Isobel).
Have a nice day xx

Achievement

Finally, I have saved over 3 thousands pounds for my Daddy.
Honestly, I'm very happy and excited^^
I know tis is not the best yet, but I have tried my best in tis time.
Of course, I'll pay more attention on my diploma course, I hope tat I can be the honor student and I know I can do it^^
Thank God reminds my weakness always so tat I can correct it immediately.
Well, I have started my holiday, It's a good news but also annoying me.
You know, It's hard to spend a long holiday well.
I have to plan a lot of things for not wasting time in my holiday!
I'm thinking of travelling around several places near Newcastle, setting myself a purpose to finish a part of diploma study and so on.
Unfortunately, all of these are juz in my mind.
Lord Father, please show me your way, I really struggling in the decision-making.
I know You want me to be more independent to find the way by myself ad You are always besides me.
Thank God tat Mum's medical checkout result is pretty good, Dad's business is nearly to finish so tat he can have a bit more rest ( If he could listen to me), Sis is more good looking and stay her happiness over thr, I can easily contact with my best friends and brother ( Miss them so much), I spend my time abundantly wit church and badminton and a lot lot things.
Thanks for giving me so much, Father, I wanna be tougher, stronger to worship you, to grow up myself. I'm willing to challenge until the destination, your kingdom. Putting all the faith in your hand. Pray in Jesus name, Amen.

Life is easy

Good morning
Good afternoon
Good evening
Good night
That's life...
we are always running out of time..we are complaining, distressing, worrying.
Why not juz take it easy, enjoy it?
I was struggling in the past, holding on the bad memories, hiding up myself not to face every situation.
Though, I am moving on to the future, stepping over obstacles, challenging in the circumstance.
You can't imagine how much happiness I have at present.
Don't waste our time in asking why is this or tat happened to me.
Do spend our time in telling how interesting it is.
I believe tat , even though it's raining here, there must be somewhr on this earth is sun-shining.
Therefore, treasure every moment tat you have.
You will not regret. 

Goodbye

Struggling in pain since last August, I finally let him go.
Thank God, bring me out of this circumstance and never fail.
To be frank, I become more mature dy because of the experience tat you gave.
Although it was really painful when you told me to find a better one, I finally relived myself after tat.
Love doesn't mean to be together, Love is the memories tat we had created.
I have no regrets.
From now own, I have my own life, a new life.
Gambateh^^
If we just stood thr without doing anything when sth happened, we would keep struggling.

If we know how to move on, we will see the miracle.

Skype!!!

It is really fun to Skype with my Daddy, Mummy, and Sis.
I'm so sorry because of my bad temper tat always hurt you.
Mummy, you are so skinny (weak) now, i hate myself tat i can't take care of you besides you.
Daddy, your skin is darker now, i know that you must have been under the heat for a long time, don't worry, i'll try my best to reduce your pressure, just give my some time.
Sis, you are the one that i don't need to worry ya?XP...just stay your happiness..I love you^*^
hahaha..

Anyway, I love my family, I love you!

Daddy I miss you

Time passes in every blink of eyes.
2 months living a lone in Newcastle without webcam-ing wit you..I have told to be tough, be strong..
Missing someone including the man i look up the most- Daddy!
Thank you for giving the chance to teach me how to be independent, intelligent..
Thank God that I'm your daughter..

Miss U so much Daddy..Finally i met u in skype today..
Pls take good care of yourself and wait for me to come back..

Here I Am - 4MEN & Mi (Secret Garden OST) [ENG SUB]

Here I am..don't you see that ?

When You Believe

There is no fear..no darkness..no suffering...

when you believe...