Dropping into deep oceon

I'm really really upset...
No one can understand how important it means to me!
I'm tired in living the life for you..
To be frank..i think i am filial piety enough..i do everything for you..
why can't you see it or even feel a little bit ..
For you...all of these are for my own good!
For me... all of these are for your own good!
I have already thrown away what kind of life tat i wanna live...
I can't even cry in front of you???
Tearing is illegal in your principles in your law ?
What the hell"!!!!
i can feel that my world is grey in colour..
how can i continue my smile????
it's so cruel man ...it's so grievance!!!!!!!
TT